Do Wishes Come True?

Something in my dreams last night left me unsettled, unsure, wondering if all the things I wish for are just there to rattle around in my head (or my heart) and remind me I'm alive. In fact, that was my first thought upon waking up: Will my wishes come true?

 I immediately sat down at my computer and typed in the phrase: 

DO WISHES COME TRUE?

Answers:

#1 wishes do come true but not by themselves. you have to help them come true u cant just make a wish and sit back to see it come true it won't work that way. blessed be.

#2 I think that wishes can come true but you have to put in a little work to get it going towards the right direction.. Think of the wish that you want and try to think of some small things you can do to make your wish come true.. A little bit of help can go a long ways.. I believe that good things come to those who deserve them.

I do have a wish list – a secret, intense and beautiful list of feelings, hopes, desire and most of all, dreams. I have so many wishes, sometimes I think I should edit them, put them in some sortable, alphabetical order. My Capricorn self loves order and those who know me know I am big on lists anyway. But in the end, what does it matter how I order them, or if they change along the way?


I'm getting older and each day I pay more attention to them -- much more attention then I ever did when I was younger. Now the small moments matter, they mean something. And as the years pass by, I don't really think my wish list gets any longer. In some cases, it has gotten shorter. I've already been blessed to have a few wishes come true. I hope there's no quota to the amount of wishes we are granted, because there are a few more that I am holding tightly to. 


There is one wish in particular that I take out at night, in those moments just before sleep. I dust it off, and look at it carefully from all angles. It's not a perfect wish, but it's close. Like worn sea glass in my hand, it once was sharper, bolder even, but in the last few years, it's taken a beating. Like sea glass, the pounding waves of my life have made it more beautiful, and more unique. More special to me. 


On my desk, I have a dish full of sea shells and sea glass that I have picked up along the way. I like to believe that dish holds my wishes. As I work during the day, I can be reminded that what will be, will be. Que Sera Sera.

Just for the Hell of It

Just for the hell of it, I was browsing Craigs List, which I confess, I tend to do when I can't sleep. Somehow the overwhelming amount of information on Craigs List makes me drowsy and usually works like a charm. Not last night. Last night, I visited a page on Craigs List called: MISSED CONNECTIONS.

Here are a few entries I was struck by:

#1: Unrequited Long Island
I'll only see you for an hour tomorrow and while its all I look forward to, I almost have nothing to say. And beyond that I dread every moment afterward, until I see you once again next week. I love your hair, and your smile, and how sometimes you don't laugh but tell me that I said something funny. I am in love with your existence; the thought that someone like you is alive and is real. I'm in love with all the things I don't know about it, which is a lot. I am NOT in love with your unattainability. I don't want you because I can't have you, I want you because when you hugged me, it created a circle of love and safety that was overpowering. I desperately want to sleep and pass all these moments that I am not in your presence.
God help me sleep tonight, and lift the misery from my situation.

#2: Dark Shades and an iPod - NJ Transit, Secaucus Station
You had dark shades and an ipod, and an archangel bag. me - black dress. it was only a short trip from secaucus to ny penn this AM, but was hoping you caught me checkin you out the whole ride. liked your shoes. wonder if this will reach you.

#3 I Think About You - Williamsburg
i wish i wasn't commitment-phobic because i think of you often. i enjoyed your company tremendously and i will miss you when you leave. and i miss you now.

#4: I love You. SM - NYC
That's all.
Just wanted to get it out.
I know, so stupid.

Reading these entries made me so sad. Are we all so starved for contact, for a true connection, that we feel the need to post things like this anonymously? These are real people. Real people with real feelings who cannot say to the people in their lives, "Hey, I love you. I want to be with you. I can't stop thinking about you."

And so most of us go on with our days- iPods cranking, blackberrys beeping, and we pass by people all the time on the train or the bus or stopped in traffic in the next car. And we don't really see people. See them as people who are tired, who have experienced great passion or heartbreak, who are just trying to get through the day and make ends meet. Maybe if we turned the iPod off and put the blackberry down, we'd have a conversation on the bus, or connect with someone on the train. Maybe if we weren't becoming a society so engrossed in NOT connecting would we actually have the wherewithal to say the truth to the people we care about and not wait until the moment passes by and we're left with writing anonymously heartbreaking tidbits on Facebook or Craigs List.

So if you get anything from this blog today. Get this: CONNECT with one person today. Be kinder to people in traffic. Stop and open the door for someone. Tell someone you love them. Call a friend you haven't talked to in a while. Be present in your lives and take the headphones out of your ears. Put the cell phone down and turn off the TV. Listen to the sound the breeze makes in the trees. Take 2 minutes and enjoy the beauty of nature. Connect with the people in your life and the world around you. Be kinder and CONNECT dammit!